Un de Mani Soleymanlou |
In presentation, Soleymanlou’s performance reminded me of
Spalding Grey’s Swimming to Cambodia —
the images of which I still carry in my mind even though I saw it 30 years ago
in an Adelaide Festival of Arts. Soleymanlou plays every part in his play, his
story, of the young boy who left Téhéran, moved via France to Canada in exile
from Iran of the Ayatollah to
join the Iranian diaspora, and over the course of the one hour performance, the
adult who goes back with his mother to “the homeland”. The story itself is
somewhat standard: the exile searching for an identity, torn between lands,
cultures, traditions, cuisines and of course, languages. Soleymanlou takes
solace in other exiles, always yearning for a home he did not know, or one he
has not yet found. Even though we have seen and read this story over and over
again, the reality of his individual synthesis of the familiar questions, and
his narration in different languages to create vivid images in the mind of the
spectator, was convincing.
For
Soleymanlou, the vast cultural richness, the dense political histories, the ancient
traditions, the language, the cuisine, the beliefs of Iran, all of them have
been caught in the crossfire, as he puts it, of the battle for oil. His picture
of Iran is fascinating because it is taken from both inside and outside, neither
here nor there, just like his expressions of what it means to be in the
diasporic community in Canada. And perhaps the most impressive element of the show
is Soleymanlou’s movement around the languages – English, French, Farsi, Arabic
– between countries, between characters. As he shifts in and out of identities,
the expectation is that an identity will reveal itself somewhere in the breaths
that he nevertheless doesn’t allow himself to take.
People
often tell me I am a nomad, and I once thought of myself as an exile: brought
up in a culture in which there was no place for me. Over the years I have come
to understand why I am neither. I am no exile because I chose to leave
Australia, and to call myself nomadic would be to ignore my deep sense of
attachment to home, and to the place from which I leave and to which I return
at the end of my travels. The world has changed since I left Australia for a
job on a cargo liner in 1986. If for no other reason than we live in a world
where “international” is a valid response to what, for many of us, is that very
complicated question: “where are you from?” After all these years, I still carry
an Australian passport, I live in Paris, I work and pay taxes in the United
Kingdom, and my intellectual work usually focuses on things German. So, like
Soleymanlou, I live between languages, cultures, across geographical borders.
As I
watched and listened to Soleymanlou, I saw and understood from a different
perspective how different that sense of displacement is for each of us,
depending not on where, but on how and why we left. Soleymanlou describes an
emptiness, a sense of something missing, a solitude that must be filled, an
emptiness given him by the country from which he was forced to leave. His
emptiness and solitude are reflected in the fact that he sits on a stage
surrounded by empty seats. He is both the actor and the spectator in his own
life, a life in which there is ultimately, no filling in of the gaps. I don’t
have that emptiness. I have a plenitude that is characterized by the richness
of the world that I have chosen to inhabit, a world that gives me what
Australia never could. And at the same time, I take Australia, it’s landscape,
the sun, wherever I go. At least, that’s the lifelong search: to complement the
international world I live in, I am always looking for places that rhyme with the
memory of the world from which I began, but to which I no longer belong. I long
to have that memory resound as it is mimicked by a somewhere else, in a
different octave, on a different horizon. And that's the difference: for an exile like Soleymanlou, there
is no image, no memory, no sound, because there is no land beneath his feet, from
which to begin the search for an echo.